About 6 months ago I decided to end my second ever serious relationship. We weren't terrible together, but I always had my doubts. It took me a long time to finally come to the decision to end our future plans together, and it was a very hard thing to do. I did love him. He was sweet and wholesome but something about our relationship wasn't enough. I still have my doubts about my decision, because I have doubts about myself. I feel as if I lost a battle within myself that maybe I could have won when I was still with him.
Just today my suspicions have been confirmed and he is moving on. He met a woman who he gets along with pretty well and he is going to go ahead and pursue it. To hear this hurts me. I've been told this is a natural thing but I think what it confirms for me is that I am more alone now than I have been this whole time. My decision to be single is solidified and he has nailed the door shut that I closed in the first place. It's irrational for me to be so upset, but I can't help but take all of this personally. I need to quit taking it personally. He is trying to be happy, and I should be happy for him taking these healthy steps in his life. I am also deserving of happiness and so I too, should continue to take those steps.
